When will this ferocious thunder inside me stop roaring?
My heart is like an erupting volcano, spewing out wild and raw molten lava – a violent & intense concoction of emotions - love, sorrow, rage & grief, all roaring to escape !
This cyclone of emotions had been brewing deep inside my core since my mother collapsed unexpectedly from a serious illness. The thought that she may have passed so abruptly was excruciatingly painful, the uncertainty of whether she would regain consciousness or make a meaningful recovery after major surgery was tormenting.
Eventually, after a long and torturous year on life support and mostly in confinement, she is now in a better place. Following an incoherent start of her recuperation she now recognises her family although she is often confused. Her short term memory has been damaged but she has regained her cheerful demeanour and always appears happy in her own world.
Thankfully my mother is surrounded by a sea of love and attention, I am grateful that we have a large family.
The ferocious thunder in my heart has finally dissipated and I now feel a sense of inner calm.
Painting by Sabrina Kee-Kitney
Acrylic on canvas, 91 x 91cm
Painted in June 2020